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This World Just Isn't YouI never would have known
That this air could be so hollow
Without your presence,
And that one day, my heart may follow
I'll never be able to describe
Just how those days made me feel
Nor how much I long for you
For my heart is always yours to steal
Our wrongs are unforgivable
Now nothing can be undone
And when it all burns down
This battle, my love, you've won
But if you only knew
That I still hold that rose,
The one that always told me
Our love would never come to a close
And if I could only trust
That the word you gave is true,
Then maybe I could have peace,
In a world that just isn't you
MisfortuneAnd so, let judgement be passed on the one never seen as themselves, but as their fool.
It takes over in times of instability, insecurity.
Why should one be judged in such a manner?
The answer: They are human.
Filthy creatures drenched in lies, ignorance, and bias.
They don't understand what they are doing.
Creating a storm, digging a grave, tearing apart a life.
The fool cannot take back what has been done.
And no amount of apology will heal any side of the story.
So terribly unfortunate.
Sometimes fools are seen as wise, but here, they are nothing but mad.
Yet the only insanity I can see is misunderstanding.
Casting the fool away, throwing it's host into an ocean of sorrow.
Drown, cruel world.
Leave only those with a true heart to float to the surface.
Help me drain away the depression.
Give me your warmth, your love.
Or leave me cold and dead.
Though, I refuse to be forever held by your loss.
One day you could vanish.
No longer in my heart, but a sore memory of the mind.
My love, I wish for youMy love,
You are one of the truest
That I could be with you
I would do anything
Not even you can understand
To create more memories
To see you,
Happy and smiling is all I want
Can't you see what you're doing?
With you it is the most precious
I get a feeling like no other
My love, I wish for you.
My dearest, I long to see you.
My darling, time spent with you,
is all I really need. <3
Wants and NeedsI stand in the center
My arms, outstretched
One hand grasps what I want
The other grips what I need
My body aches from procrastination
My thoughts push me further from sanity
So many things that must be done,
In order to obtain happiness
To truly feel happy,
The seemingly impossible must become possible
Why must it be so difficult?
Unlike it was back then
When we had so little choice,
But all we could need or want was where we were
That changed one day
Everyone changed, so rapidly
All I remember is a large blur
It replaces the last two years of my life
It went from happiness and stability
To a world slowly crumbling before my eyes
But I could build it up for good, maybe
If only what I wanted had easy access to my needs
Where I reside now has perfected my needs
But what little of my wants it had, grew weaker
Where I wish to be has potential, a chance to start over
But it greatly lacks the blocks to build my future
All I can do is try for now
Try to rebuild my wants, where I am
ChangeWhy can't I do that too?
Why can't I have all of that?
Why can't I get all of those?
Why can't I be like that?
I have to alter
I have to try
I have to learn
I have to follow
Why don't things go the way I want them to?
Why don't I have the motivation for that?
why don't I know how to do that?
Why don't I have that?
I need to do something
I need to move on
I need to understand
I need to become like that
Why can't I change?
Why don't I change?
I need to change.
I have to change.
Waiting, Wanting, WishingWaiting...
...to see your face.
...this to be resolved.
...to hear your voice.
...to know who you are.
...to be able to use my voice.
...for something to go wrong.
...to see you break.
...for you to fall.
In SanityI find myself in a world of white,
This place it feels so pure.
The Sun's rays are warm and bright
I've never felt so sure.
I explore the land and all its sights,
I enjoy the world's grand tour.
I wander around until the night
Shows what it has in store.
In the darkness, a speck of light
Reveals a hidden door.
I turn the handle and peer inside,
A sight I can't endure.
I turn to run, to escape my plight,
I dare not to explore.
But something inside catches my eye,
I can't resist the lure.
I awake to find myself tied tight,
A voice tries to assure,
"This one may finally fix you right,
Maybe this is the cure."
Beyond LoveYou say 'beautiful' like a mistake -
like it slipped out unwarranted
from those dark parts of your mind
that you don't want me to go to,
you say it like that.
You caress like it's worship -
like if you pressed too hard
or took too much, you'd pay the price
and I love those urgent times when
you're willing to pay it.
You teach me love like I'll die without it -
like if you don't defrost me
and my frozen image of myself,
then I might stop breathing
and extinguish beneath my own icy damnation.
You kiss me like you have to -
like we're sharing an oxygen tank
in a toxic, broken-down universe
and you are trying not to breathe
to save me.
You kiss me like that.
You love me, like that -
how am I supposed to resist
a man who loves me beyond his own sense
and senses - beyond love ?
BloodRunning away, again and again through the years
Moving from white square to black and back
Packing and unpacking things without meaning
Carrying them from here to there religiously
The doctor says there’s nothing wrong, but still
I’m up at three, drinking coffee, coughing up blood
Watching the same old ghosts watching me
I don’t have to pack them when I move, they follow
A cannibal who’s eaten everyone around him
I’ve turned on myself now, three toes already gone
Watching the lights of the modem blink yellow
No connection; another cough, another coffee alone
kafka has been dead foreveri.
I am going to cut the veins out of my neck:
pull the stars from the legiments
drown the cities in bruises
I am going to burn in hell:
tear down the pyramids, the faces, the continents
the weight of the universe
(if I live to be 20
I will know the landscape of my mind
as well as the bottom of the ocean
& people I've never met)
CarcinogensMy hands smell
like antiseptic solution
and cancer, because
the peroxide won’t
cleanse your cigarette
ashes from my nails,
and the cremation
jar is still smoking.
Asperger SyndromeAsperger Syndrome is awesome.
Asperger Syndrome is cool.
Asperger Syndrome rocks.
People with Asperger Syndrome are sweet but not that outgoing.
People with Asperger Syndrome have their interests.
People with Asperger Syndrome have their pet peeves too.
People with Asperger Syndrome are quirky.
People with Asperger Syndrome sometimes have other problems too.
People with Asperger Syndrome have feelings.
People with Asperger Syndrome are people too.
Pop Rocksbeads of roman sweat and dust
lace the wind like meth into pop rocks—
feel the fizzlepop of history flamenco
across your justahuman tongue
and wonder why your professor never
lectured on the strawberry tang
of crusaders' sloshed blood.
What did you say it was?My darling,
I hope you're happy
Satisfied, at least
In what you've caught yourself up in
Do you enjoy them?
The rules and restrictions,
That only you are pressured to follow
It breaks my heart
He does, you do
I can't bear much more of this
I can see what you truly long for
And, my love, that is not it
Far from it
This is what you'd escaped, in a way
But it would seem as though you're destined to this
I hope not,
Will all my heart, and love for you
Dearest, I'm the witness to your death
Am I the only one who sees your suffering?
Not even you can
You've become entangled
Hypnotized by him
Look not into his eyes
Within them, you see the image he has set for you
You are solely to blame
He can do no wrong
You worry now,
Unlike you used to
About his happiness only
Change, my sweet
We all have, but for you
It just doesn't fit, not like this
You're not who you used to be
You never were, you never will be
Neither will anyone else
But when I look at you
I don't see you at a
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