Well.
I fucked up.
That's it.

My life. UGH. I dont even know how to describe it. I dont know anything.
I just want everything to be done. All of it.
Just everything.

I gave him an ultimatum.
Im not taking it back.
And the event is not going to be made an exception.

I just cant take it.
If it were to take place, I wouldnt be able to control myself.
Not for a while.

Everything would be shattered.
And it would turn everything I thought I knew, into lies.

So we'll see what happens.
If he chooses the other way, then it's over.
For good.

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On a an added lighter note, this quiz is effin hilarious. Tell me how many you can take on!

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Yeah. Don't ask.

Thought I'd just drop by for a quickie. A quick poem I mean. You pervs. : )

Anyshmay!! As you can see I've submitted something. Annddd once again it's something random that wasn't included in my promise of a bunch of things being submitted.

Im sorry. I just dont have the time and energy to go through all that stuff right now!
Sooo this time. All I have to say, is you get what you get, when you get it. Kay? : D

Sooo I've been going through a lot lately. Mentally, emotionally. My love life is f**ked up the a**. Plus the rest of my life. UGH. Fffmmmlll. : |

Hmm. So Im way to busy to do anything until summer is done. Which isnt much longer. So just hold on XD

So today is my 2 year anniversary with my boyfriend. And he's not going to be home until 5:30. And that makes me sad/mad. Uggghhh and he cant even sleep over because he has 2 friggin jobs and works at 8 in the morning.

GrraraaaahhHHhahharararahhh!

Hmm. Ill update again soon.

Anything started before today, has now been temporarily abandoned.
I'll get to it once I can get some more supplies D;

For now, I wrote something, go ahead and check it out. Also, I have another drawing that I started, and I can work on it while I wait for a chance to "restock."

So just hold on, and soon I'll be submitting more drawings. I have a few more photos that will be coming up soon too.

Im a tad depressed lately so don't expect that when I say "soon" I actually mean soon. And in my case, my soon is already later than your soon, therefore my not so soon, soon with be later than my late soon..

Uhm. I'm not even sure if that made sense, but it could be a while for deviations.

~Ax

Why can't I do that too?
Why can't I have all of that?
Why can't I get all of those?
Why can't I be like that?

I have to alter
I have to try
I have to learn
I have to follow

Why don't things go the way I want them to?
Why don't I have the motivation for that?
why don't I know how to do that?
Why don't I have that?

I need to do something
I need to move on
I need to understand
I need to become like that

Why can't I change?
Why don't I change?
I need to change.
I have to change.